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I’m not always sure…

Like it states in the title “i’m not always sure…” about a lot when it comes to my disabled son Grayson, but i take each day as it comes.

I think I find it the hardest when he is ill. They say that as his parent no one knows him better than you which i think 95% of the time is true.

It is difficult caring for him and with him not being able to tell you in anyway how he is feeling or what he wants other than in the way he has learnt to can be gut wrenching at times.

So when he is ill his disability’s seem so much worse, other than cleaning his nose and dosing him up on everything you can  i just have to sit there and suffer so to speak.

Watching him struggling to breathe and swallow through his mouth because his nose is so blocked, barely eating at the best of times as it is so when ill next to nothing on the food front.

But even after all this suffering he goes through on a fairly regular basis, he still manages to make me smile even when inside his own head he’s probably screaming “daddy help me”

And all I can do is carry on what I am doing I guess.

I love you son xxx


Silent Sunday

A Sign of Things to Come…I Hope

For some time now I’ve been struggling to come up with some idea’s for blog posts…

Actually let’s start again, not so much as idea’s for posts but relative content. Idea’s is the easy part if you ask me it’s all the finer details which in actual fact is surprising as I’m full of useless information and like the wife says i do like to waffle!

So why am I struggling so much and then this morning it hit me. Why not just start off small and write about my day-to-day life in general a bit like a diary I suppose.

It may not be of much interest to anyone but it’s a way for me to get into the rhythm of writing better so without further a do here go’s.

First thing this morning I’m woken with a startle i can hear Kara screaming my name (and not in the way i would like if you get my drift ;)) as she was up with our baby daughter Addison who is ill at the moment (bless her)

and had been sick all over the pair of them to the point neither could move so that was me up @6.30 baring in mind i hadn’t gone to sleep till 1am due to watching The Departed on Film4+1 so quite knackered.(my own doing I know)

So now time to come to, a cup of tea, toast and the news to start followed by our son Grayson waking about 7.30 nappy changes all round then milk and medicine administered to both.

8am is breakfast time, cereal for Addison & Milky bar yoghurt for Grayson (it’s all he eats for breakfast) then Kara is off to work in the quiet of the bedroom as she works from home on Thursdays.

So now it’s just Grayson, Addison and me. 8.30 news watched and now for toys and kids TV whatever isn’t screamed at by Grayson goes on, Addison is easy-going she’ll watch anything.

9.55 and Addison has passed out on the front room floor of to bed she go’s for a few hours we hope it’ll do her good. 10am time for Grayson’s first meal of the day and today we have chicken and parsnip bake, it stinks to high heaven I can’t believe he enjoys this but each to their own as the saying go’s!

Grayson finished back to his toys and TV please remember he is disabled and all he enjoys is TV,toys & chocolate in case you think I’m a bad/lazy parent for letting him watch so much.

And now to this blog post which has taken some time but what’s the rush and bear in mind running around keeping an eye on him and seeing to other stuff in the flat time flies by and on that note I can smell a nappy that needs changing!

New Year, Fresh Start!

Hi all,

I know it’s been a long time since i last posted and to be honest all I was posting regularly were picture’s…

I unfortunately lost my blog mojo but as with most I have resolutions for the new year one of them being to post more even if it’s only once a week and completely random.

Here are a few of my resolutions;

  1. Stop smoking fully(part-time smoker)
  2. Loss weight & exercise more
  3. Blog more
  4. Watch all still wrapped DVDs in my collection…

So I hope to keep up blogging, let me know some of your resolutions.

A to Z of Me

The A to Z of me which may help you to learn more about me, kindly bought to my attention by @innocentcharmer

ANORAK…Do you have a sad side?

I’m a bit of a computer geek/nerd and I do enjoy housework, I get a real satisfaction once I’m finished. Although my wife did comment the other day that apparently I am a train spotter!

BODY…What physical attribute would you most like to change?

I’m not to fussed about my appearance I’m tall which I love I’m well-built so I just need to lose some pounds off the belly.

CELEBRITY…Which one would you most like to date and why?

It has to be Nicolas Cage, he is my film idol/god. No I’m not gay I just have a passion for this mans work, he can play any character he puts his mind to and I would love to know him personally.

DÉBUT …Tell us about your first ever blog post. What made you start blogging?

My first blog was really just to say who I am and why I’m doing it. I suppose I started mainly down to having time on my hands as I’m now a part-time stay at home dad and for me I don’t have any friends really to talk to about how I’m doing so I have my blog to say whatever I’m feeling.

ERROR …What’s been your biggest regret? 

There are a few but the most important is ( see “unknown in this list”) probably failing at university which consequently meant I couldn’t provide well enough for my family.

FUNNY – Who’s making you laugh?

My Children everyday they do something that makes my day. Other than them I think Jimmy Carr, Sarah Millican, Jack Whitehall the list is endless.

GRAND…If we gave you one right now what would you spend it on? 

I guess the correct answer should be bills, bills, bills – destiny’s child ha ha. Always children & wife they deserve it but if I was single then gadgets galore!

HOLIDAY… What’s your favourite destination?

I think it has to be Las Vegas so far, only been there once but it was out of this world. I would recommend going to anyone. Plus my son Grayson was conceived too!

IRRITATE… What’s your most annoying habit?

I really don’t know of any other than my snoring which I think one day will stop when the wife strangles me in my sleep.

JOKER…What’s your favourite joke {the one that makes you laugh every time you hear it}?

Why was the six scared of seven?  Because the seven eight nine! Boom Boom Ha Ha gets me every time (from an episode of Mickey Mouse Club House)

KENNEL… Do you have any pets?

No, but would love a dog, preferably a beagle I adore them so much.

LOVE…Are you single, married, engaged, living with a long-term partner?

Married to Kara aka @innocentcharmer for nearly 7 years (13/11) she means the world to me and I don’t work properly without her!

MEAL… What’s your ultimate starter, main and dessert?

Has to be prawn cocktail to start, then sausage, mash & beans for main and to finish off I think Eton mess.

NOW…If you could be anywhere right now where would you be and who with?

It would be with my immediate family on holiday in Disneyland, Florida, USA.

OFF DUTY…What do you do in your spare time?

Watch as many films as I can and surf the internet for random crap.

PROUD MOMENTS …What are you most proud of?

For me it has to be Kara saying yes to marrying me as I know she didn’t really want to & of course becoming a father to my two little wonders.

QUEASY …What turns your stomach?

Pass…Nothing really that I’m aware of.

RELAX…How do you relax?

Alcohol and a film or if I’m on my own…please keep it clean I was going to say very,very loud music!

SONG…What’s your favourite song of all time? 

That is very, very hard… I think it has to be “because of you” by Gabrielle It’s our song as in the wife & me. But there is a dance track which always lifts & calms me called “Ayla” by Ayla It features in Kevin & Perry Go Large.

TIME …If you could go back in time and relive it again, when would you choose?

I think it would have to be one of two occasions,  first would have to be my first holiday with Kara to Antigua it was just amazing in every sense of the word and second my wedding day so Kara could remember it and I could see how amazing she looked.

UNKNOWN…Tell us something about yourself that no one else knows?

I have four daughters from a previous marriage who I don’t get to see at all and haven’t seen since 2001, yes I am divorced too!

VOCAL…. Who is your favourite artist?

My God there are so many to choose from, I have very eclectic taste but I think I’d have to say the late Michael Jackson R.I.P

WORK….. What is your dream job, and are you doing it now?

Sadly I am not. I always wanted to be a doctor I had the qualifications to pursue this career but unfortunately I didn’t have the support and backing of both my parents.

X-RAY…Any broken bones?

Yes my little toe which was only a few months ago. I kicked a cabinet in the hallway that’s been there since we moved in nearly a year ago dumbass!

YIKES…What’s been your most embarrassing moment?

Can’t think of anything…

ZOO…. If you were an animal, which one would you be?

It’s got to be a tiger i think they’re the real king of the jungle all buff just like me! Ha Ha

Save The Children!

Thank you to @SAHDandproud for tagging me.

As some of you may know i have a two and a half-year old son called Grayson who is disabled in various ways and if I am completely honest i wish he wasn’t.

Don’t get me wrong I don’t love him any less for how he is, but it’s very hard sometimes coping with him and I think if it wasn’t for the varied professional help he has had since birth not only would he not be where he is developmentally today but I think I may not be as positive as I am for the future.

In the world’s poorest countries, 8 million children under five die needlessly every year. They’ll never get the chance to fulfil their potential. Most are killed by illnesses we know how to prevent and treat, such as diarrhoea and pneumonia. And every single day, thousands of children face starvation. In 2011, this is totally and utterly wrong.

Even though we’ve had to fight for help from the system, I’d rather have it than not. Children from all over the world including the U.K don’t receive the health care they deserve. We need more health care workers worldwide. Lets do what we can to help! 

Write how you feel




Here We Go

Well at long last it’s here not only my first post but after a long debate my blog.

I’ve set this up for several reasons but if I’m honest it’s for me to express and vent whatever i want whenever i want!

My name is Ashley but most call me ash I’ve recently become a SAHD (stay at home dad for those that don’t understand text speak) to in my opinion the two most gorgeous children I have ever laid my eyes on bias yes!

I have been fortunate to be blessed with my two and a half yr old son Grayson who is disabled and with various conditions & a beautiful four-month old daughter Addison who in the most part is exceptionally happy and striving well.

Grayson & Addison

I’m going to leave it at that for now I’ll be back soon with maybe some insight into something you may find of interest.

Thanks for stopping by Ash

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